When Did This Happen?

I can not sleep. Is it because I am to excited to sleep like that little boy the night before going to Disney World? Can I not sleep because Avery just got up and peed in the hallway, and in the potty? Is it because my ankle is itching? 

Off Ramp Warning!!! 

I got "taken down" by a St. Bernard named Ruby. She isn't even a year old and I love her. She just likes to run circles around you while on her leash. I just happened not to jump over it once and she took me down to the ground and I now have a slice on my right foot. It's healing, but it's very itchy!! 

Back On The Road!!! 

 Maybe it's all of the above. I think that it just might be because I will have a high school freshman tomorrow morning. I am just having a hard time wrapping my head around it. Four more years with this one and we are almost done. She will not need us, (me), on a everyday kind of level. The one she is going to is not a typical high school thank goodness. One floor and a lot of nerds. I am worried that she is going to get lost. Get her heart broken. Get lost in the shuffle of everyday life in a high school. Chris is worried that she will be picked on.

Now what about the little one? I am having a hard time thinking about what I went through when Whitney was that age. Things changed. She came home smelling like..... school. Not my baby. I told Whitney when she was in Kindergarten, ok now go make Mommy friends. I have friends this time. I was super(ish) involved. I would come into class and help the teachers. Will I be able to still do that? Will I be able to be as involved if not more than I was when Whitney was little? 

How do I balance everything? 

I don't want Whitney to feel like she doesn't have me there for her. 

I also want Avery to have me around as much as Whitney did. I want to give Avery the same life, but better than we were able to give Whitney. How do you do that with kids that are so far apart in age?