Thursday, December 27, 2012


I just want to stop and say Thanks to everyone in my life. I really am blessed to have all of you around me. I know sometimes life just keeps moving and we forget to say thank you. So this is my chance, before life gets to busy again.

To my husband, Chris. Thank you for not letting me go down the dark hole when I found out about my Mom. I know I need to keep going and be there for you and the girls. Thank you for picking up the slack, when I just don't feel like it. Thank you for cooking, and doing the laundry. Thank you for being my husband and not giving up on us. I know that the road has been long, but it still is going. Sometimes we need to stop for directions and keep going. I am grateful to God for bringing you into my life. I am grateful that you are the father to my girls. I LOVE YOU!

To my sister, Candi. Thank you for being the oldest! I wouldn't be able to shoulder all that you do. I know that you struggle with it sometimes. You are a wonderful example of how people should be. You are loving and caring and give a lot of yourself. Thank you for being a great blue print. I wouldn't want anyone else for my sister! I LOVE YOU!

To my friends. I did not know how I was going to go on after the fire. I lost a close friend and without that loss I would not have found all my new friends. Thank you to the friends that have known me for a long time and thank you to the ones that have only known me for a short time. I have learned so much from all of you. If I am having a bad day I can call on you to be a shoulder. You have had us over, brought me caffeine, offered soup, given me booze and so much more than I can list. You have prayed, and continued to, for me and my family in our season of need. For that I will never be able to say thank you enough. I LOVE YOU ALL!

I am thankful for the people that have adopted us as members of their family. I don't think you will ever know how much we needed you. Thank you for opening your home to us and welcoming us. WE LOVE YOU!

It's a big deal to me to have each and everyone of you in my life. I feel very special. I think that sometimes I have become a "taker" in life and I am sorry for that. I really want to tell you all how grateful I am for all of you.

To my Mom, the most important person, thank you for having me. For giving me food and a home. For giving me, Candi and Doug all that you could. I love you and I am forever grateful for you. You have been the one I talk to about anything and everything. I will take every moment we have together and hold them close to my heart. I will never know how lucky I have been to have you as my Mommy. I LOVE YOU, the most!  

Wednesday, December 26, 2012


I know the title is shocking... 
These are the words I say more often then I would like to admit. They are directed to my wonderful husband when he can't find things. He of course LOVES it when I say that to him! Also his love for me oozes out of him when I tell my friends about it. LOL. I guess I have a little bit of a photographic memory. So when Chris is looking for something I can tell him exactly where it is, what color, what size, and what is around it. So my thoughts are. If I give you that much detail and you still can't find it, what else should/could I say other than take it off? My sister has the same problem with her husband. Michael will be looking for something in their really big pantry and will not be able to find what he is looking for. Candi will tell him what shelf it's on and still nothing. She will get up start walking to the pantry and as soon as she is almost there, he will say "oh I found it!"  

I love the men in my life, but it is very frustrating to have this happen. Chris will even tell me that we are out of things that I know are are not. He will not believe me! This happens the most with toilet paper. He will check the bathroom where I put it and not check the hall closet. Once he looks he will say the same thing, "oh I found it!" Grrrr. I just told him yesterday that he couldn't live alone. Maybe the men do this in their way of making us feel needed? 

Does your partner do anything like this? I would really like to know with couples that are the same sex. Is it just a guy thing or do women do this also? 

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

I LOVE Garage Sales!

I have found garage sale sites on Facebook and 
                             LOVE THEM!

 So many things to look at and so little time to post interested! I have gotten clothes for my girls, a toy box, gifts for friends, home decor, and kitchen items. I even got a lot of my Christmas list from the garage sale sites. 

My most favorite item that I got was a Pyrex 1 quart GREEN casserole dish!! I LOVE it! The first time I got to use it, it was for veggies. Second time was for taco meat. It held a pound and a half of it. I have a small kitchen table for four people so space on the table is at a premium. The Pyrex takes up half the space the skillet did. (Insert happy dance here!) I can not wait to see what else I can put in it! What will be my favorite? 
 Gosh so many options....

My love of Pyrex started many years ago when my sister got married. They got white Pyrex with lids, I can't remember if it was a wedding gift or something they had just picked up. I always thought that's what married people do. They have matching dishes, a full set of Tupperware and really nice serving dishes!! I know silly but I didn't have a lot of examples of what marriage looked like or how it was supposed to be. My sister and brother in law became my blue print. They both worked, Michael would cook and they told each other EVERYTHING. When Chris and I would fight, they would help us see each others point of view. I owe a lot of years of marriage to them. Now years later, Candi and I joke that we both marriage each other. She is so much like Chris it really isn't funny. On the other hand I guess Michael and I are quiet a bit alike. Just last night Christmas Eve Candi said, "I married my sister". I few minutes later Michael said, "Wait, What?" LOL, I am so blessed to have them as real life examples of what marriage is. 

Thank You Candi and Michael.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Holiday Heartbreak

Hello Friends. 

  It's been a while.

  I needed a break. 

   Like everyone that has lost anyone close to you, the holidays are really the hardest. I think that I'm having a really hard time due to my Mom being in the hospital.  She has been in there since June. Well has been to lets see, five different places in that time period. With the bulk of the time being in a place that Avery could not go and see her. My Mom has been doing better then had to be taken back to the hospital twice. She is there now. When she went back into the hospital the first time, it was so hard on me. I thought that she was doing so much better. Then a set back. This whole thing started with an infection in her mouth that traveled into her jaw. She has since had all of her bottom teeth removed, and reminds me
so much of my Gram. I miss my Mom. She wasn't the greatest Mom ever, she did the best she could. In the last few years we have really become close. I miss talking to her on the phone. She would come up and stay with my family and I for the weekend. Avery and her got to be really close. She has missed out on my sister's birthday, my brother-in-laws birthday. The kids going back to school. Chris's birthday, my birthday, Her birthday, Thanksgiving, and now Christmas. She is just so young, it breaks my heart to even think that this could be the road to the end. I pray that she gets better. That it's just going to take a while, but like a lot of things in my life I don't want to wait. I want it to happen now!! I want the Mom that I talked to almost everyday. The one that wouldn't drive at night, in rain, or snow. The Mom that wore sweatshirts two or three times to big for her body. The one I could see over her head because she was shrinking. I feel like the little kid the morning of Christmas, looking forward to unwrapping my presents. All I want is to have my Mom here with a bow on her head. The only present I want. 

If you pray, please pray for God's will to be done. 

I love you and miss you Mom. Please get better soon. 

Last year, my Mom and Avery. Best Buddies.